Since dislocating and breaking my ankle, I wanted to write a post about my recovery journey but couldn’t find the right words to describe it until today.
Every time I train, it didn’t feel like I pushed myself where my face would be flushed, sweat trickling down or doing the weights/reps/sets that I know I want to push myself towards. It feels like I didn’t work hard enough because I wasn’t performing to the intensity I use to train to.
But it hit me. I had to be kind to myself, because I WAS pushing myself. I am only 65% of what I use to be. But I am putting 100% effort of that percentage into training and getting better.
Yes, I am not progressing as fast as I want to in order get back to normal. In fact, some days feel like I am going backwards. It’s incredibly frustrating and hard to restrain yourself from going too hard for risk of reinjury.
I need to understand that I am only 65% of what I use to be but it does not mean I can’t put or am not putting 100% of it into getting better and stronger each day. Training focus may be different, but intention remains the same – being the best version of myself.